Howcome I have to downgrade my worth for an older lady I like; who is forcing me to fight this supposed request to make life go happily ever after? it's to bother me before they forget about it.  This keeps coming up.  It makes me very mad because she isn't even there, and yesterday or a time before things were a different story and I was treated strangely too but not to discredit my worth along with it.  It's not my fault if I'm shit.  They wasted my time at school.  I couldn't exercise when I wanted, and other people did.  Like, in school, we listened to the teacher discipline bad kids too much and got busywork and never learned to succeed in a lecture/reading course.