I feel like I have to halt my worth to make way for an older lady I like and not do certain things, but I avoid copying her.  Maybe, people spend too much time on her in certain ways or she imprints certain things in her own method, rather than as a reminder of what we all might learn, like with others.

Where did this idea come up, that it was considered plagiarizing or stealing, like to do something like her but still not look or be like her?