Playing With My Eyes

When I got underground famous for being in trouble, my eyes felt like this but not blurry, so often they were left to pop sorta or pressure going around it.  It stopped when I started watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show..."  I just suffer, as usual, and it's interesting contrast how successful this older lady is.  I wonder if someone who likes her made her feel, well, selfish, but I suspect there are other/new reasons.  First, he must have tried to indulge her and then said she was "full of it."  What if she falls for that?  Is that their game of love, then, to like each other so much that this is "child's play?" as opposed to having other kinds of relationships?  I didn't say who it was, but a lot of people know stuff about them, especially the ones there.  I was a bit flabbergasted but maybe concerned it keeps happening mainly or related.  I've known a long time.  So, I was just wondering, like about this cycle and how it's grown into a worldwide phenomena.