I keep getting people outside saying the older lady I like is ruining my life like I really did something that bad.  They also had to believe she really cut me off, "like nothing just happened."  So, that matters; am I just being played with?  No one cares about me.

Well, I was upset about it being done that way for the first time.  People wouldn't stop messing with me.  I wanted to take it calmly and got made fun of for not believing it.  I got upset at new suggestions to take my focus, like they think I need shit therapy too in a way, like that makes them nice and even impressive in the end because it was probably checked and documented ... but it seems like making fun of me in the end too, the part that "doesn't matter."