I keep feeling turned against someone but think I should be turned against other people, instead, if that person becomes a problem just to me, in actuality and in the end. I know I'd be in trouble with that person. What is going on? I have things against a lot of people for being racist to me, but I don't know what else, in that way. I guess that person isn't racist against me as much as the others. Still, she is a normal person, and I am forced to interact with her sometimes, though, whereas with other people we just brush by and that's enough for them or there's nothing to talk about in their interest.
I don't know how to keep up the blame against people going at me for real, not that other person, for turning us against each other. They're rapidfire attack, they won't relax to me but keep at me in the distance like they are just watching what I do without talking to me. I wonder how they get away with it and I seem to be disliked for lots of things because I'm not older or something or of a certain generation.